stealing time for myself
Mind is the most strangest thing , everyday I keep thinking lots of stuff to write here but my priorities never allow me , so this writing takes back seat always . No matter how much I keep thinking I never get time . Not blaming anyone .I suppose that is what life means. My of late realization of life is “its now or never”. mostly COVID 19 gave this feelings to me , when life halts we realize what life means. Today I thought of writing ,a lame attempt to write something ,whatever it is.
Every single day I make a to do list , this is kind of ritual to me ,unless its written in a diary, my mind is not going to process it . Now the trick is my own mind cheating me , when I make list, I make sure I write what I need to do as Me that day but at the end of the day I get really little me time .If I get sometime when day finishes ,m literally super tired. I read somewhere you get tired once you finish the race and same applicable to me or all the mum out there I suppose.
There was a time I used to consider” I need to finish it as I started it “. Motherhood has changed me ,in my exclusive list if I start doing something ,that makes me happy as my motto has changed . Its now “well begun is half done “.
I will say ,m doing fantastic .Running this marathon everyday I still aspire to give some time to myself .This aspiration needs praise for sure, but in this schedule feels like my priorities are not involve at all .Its all about kids and house . Please never think that m able to do something special for hubby .He is in the same boat, little bit better but cant be glorified .Poor fellow raised too right by my in laws ,purely following “no complain ,no demand ” policy . A truly happy soul .No offence to my parents. I do have some opposite qualities than him . Again girl and boy cant be same . Wife privilege is a very real thing which completely follows a different rule book for sure .
Now jokes apart its really takes a lot to raise kids especially when you have different needs to cater Everything needs to plan well ahead . This most of the time works . The race starts morning 6 am and finishes 8/8.30 pm with small two but still almost teenager not finished her day yet and you cant be tired yet . Life always comes with some catch , if not this I am sure I would have some other thing .
So no more cribbing .today’s take home message for me ,STEAL more time for myself and keep doing my stuff what makes me happy . Happy writing to me 🙂
